denial as a blanket. my armor. a little nook. cozy and accommodating. a sanctuary. my warm gun. i love the way it’s starting to feel around here. deeper, decided breaths. waiting, but deliberately resisting the longing for understanding. it’s “fine”. digging a hole in the yard deep enough to contain the echoes of my wailingContinue reading “the fountain”
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the only one
i think i’m steadily, gracefully easing into letting go of my attachment to things and learning to share them with the world. i’m not an only child. i don’t have issues sharing. i’d lost just about everything in a fire at the start of my saturn return. still, i have this thing about ownership. someContinue reading “the only one”
the ghetto
Instead of my usual route I’m gonna take a detour. Let’s just see where the road less taken gets me. Since it’s fuck the rules, right? I’m gonna entertain the idea that i’m simply too much for you niggas. and also that *you* were not good enough. Follow me. People seek you out for beingContinue reading “the ghetto”
seen
2.5 weeks ago i started to give up and give in again. I told Ronnie i was afraid of the next 6 months bc i knew the previous 6 felt like i had been handled. i’d taken a beating and the wounds were never properly dressed. Bruises & welts lived just beneath my skin. ifContinue reading “seen”
I’m back?
I haven’t done this in so long lol. Wait I’m lying. I tried to have a fashion blog for 2 seconds but i guess that don’t count 💀. Shout out to all my OG bloggers. Livejournal/blogspot/Wordpress days. Look at us having a full circle moment 😂. I feel like it’s too soon to start goingContinue reading “I’m back?”